I lay myself out on the operating table. A body I have reduced changes form under natural lights and Natty Lite, my hollow bones hold up my 1k-lb head on my t-minus 4 hour shoulders. I couldn’t include the collarbones. The head and porous ears were okay, but the eyes were crossed and the tease was doted on other you’s. The tongue in cheek because I left out the lips altogether. When they asked what it was like to date me, my lidless pupils replied, September 4th or October 18th? Best by your last in(de)cision. Cut off. You’re cute. I cut off the cuticles. You cut the crap. You crossed your eyes. I crossed my hips. I cut out
We carve our stories by paintedpassion, literature
Literature
We carve our stories
I find you in the light that filters in through
the cracks in doors left slightly ajar
My hands trace the wood trying to read
stories in the marks like rings
around the bark of a tree. You
take my splintered hands in
yours and we compare. I follow the
cracks in your cuticles and try to
read if your stories are like
my own. My lips find the cracks
in yours and I try to find
where light spills out of the cracks
in our foundations in our hearts in our
homes. I try to find the marks on you
before you make a mark on me too.
The girl clutches a newspaper clipping
hands trembling, she holds it over a fire.
The same flame once extinguished in her vocal cords now
burns in her body, burns off her hair, burns from her birth
marks her holding the word weak over the sienna hues.
The girl is not flight plans. She is not weather.
Airplanes grow old and torch off their wings.
The girl is not a plane.
She is not paper.
The girl covers her eyes as the televisions project pilots
crashing planes on purpose. She builds paper
planes that are too heavy to fly.
She crumples forgiveness between her fingertips
dry with ink and wet with sweat matted
through her hair knotted togeth
I don’t want to build an igloo with you
Snow could not hide
the words we never said
and did
Our lips will not freeze
Our minds will not numb
If we did, they’d find our bodies
Use us as art
We could pretend to be ice sculptures
But we won’t
We will all melt away
if a train leaves the station... by paintedpassion, literature
Literature
if a train leaves the station...
if a train leaves the station at 500mph in the wrong direction
all you can feel is crumbs
your life is crumbs
bread crumbs
crumbling
fingers numb
dumbing
down jaws clenched humming
rum running down your lips
lipping the words you miss
kiss when you ask
when did the world start
when did you lose your train
of thought maybe when you lost your train
at the Trail of Breadcrumbs
maybe you
crumble
kiss the ashes of the shadow girl
trade secrets through the candle
wax but never feel her
touch the dreams where she
holds you in your sleep
living behind your memory
press the roses in the book
lock the words inside your chest
kiss the shadow air to rest
My skin broke open
several times
numb until I saw blood
fading into a dull pink
circling down the drain
This was before--
back when the girls
in the locker room
pointed at my hairy legs,
a hushed giggle
I broke myself
into something smooth
bare, childlike
vulnerable
That was before
I threw out the razor
but continued to bleed
every time the moon
beamed full
But I stopped
breaking
They laughed at body
and called me
"Werewolf"
and I ate them alive.
She let a thin line of smoke escape her lips slowly. I watched it rise into the night air and dissipate into empty space.
“Want a drag?” She was hardly the poster child of sex objects but I couldn't help but find myself attracted to her. She didn’t have the long, red fingernails or the crimson lipstick. She looked like something more chaotic. Her brown hair was wild and tangled. Her eye makeup was uneven. I hated smokers but I found myself staring at the way her head tilted back as she let out those long, deliberate exhales. She held the cigarette out towards me between her bitten down fingernails.
“No thanks.”
This night is quiet beyond the sound
of heavy wind picking up speed
pulling along leaves that click and
crash against the pavement before
their weight is lifted upwards
blowing in whimsical circles dancing
in the gust
I want to let that wind carry me away
for just one moment to feel
weightless in the air
being carried along by something
other than stained teeth
biting my cuticles bloody
I swallow the night
the moon the stars the old flickering streetlamps
into my veins lit up like small vessels
the city, alive, roaring
I become a part of it
all of it
and nothing at all.
I lay myself out on the operating table. A body I have reduced changes form under natural lights and Natty Lite, my hollow bones hold up my 1k-lb head on my t-minus 4 hour shoulders. I couldn’t include the collarbones. The head and porous ears were okay, but the eyes were crossed and the tease was doted on other you’s. The tongue in cheek because I left out the lips altogether. When they asked what it was like to date me, my lidless pupils replied, September 4th or October 18th? Best by your last in(de)cision. Cut off. You’re cute. I cut off the cuticles. You cut the crap. You crossed your eyes. I crossed my hips. I cut out
The girl clutches a newspaper clipping
hands trembling, she holds it over a fire.
The same flame once extinguished in her vocal cords now
burns in her body, burns off her hair, burns from her birth
marks her holding the word weak over the sienna hues.
The girl is not flight plans. She is not weather.
Airplanes grow old and torch off their wings.
The girl is not a plane.
She is not paper.
The girl covers her eyes as the televisions project pilots
crashing planes on purpose. She builds paper
planes that are too heavy to fly.
She crumples forgiveness between her fingertips
dry with ink and wet with sweat matted
through her hair knotted togeth
We hollowed out the earth's core by paintedpassion, literature
Literature
We hollowed out the earth's core
and held our breath under the mantle.
Let’s just pretend, you said.
Our feet kick out as
gravity exists on another planet.
We trace stars on our fingers counting
hours seconds lightyears until they
burn out.
When did we stop holding our breath?
Our lungs fill with lead and we sink
to the surface before
we are born,
naked on soil
silent, serene
our atoms fresh and salty
fingers dry with dirt.
You kiss the stars on my eyelids
until we burn out.
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http://kaleidoscopicvision.blogspot.com/